I'm still here.
Seeing Todd last month was so good. I needed to be with him so bad. The first day together I didn't want to let go of his arm or take my eyes off of his face. After that, it felt like regular life again. It was so refreshing.
To be honest, though, I'm having a hard time now.
For one thing, I had no idea how much easier parenting could be with a DAD in the picture. It was so awesome to have his help and influence and energy with Hazel, and I'm absolutely feeling the deficit now.
And it's a long time until October. It hurts to think I have to wait that long to hug my husband again. I feel the missing him much more keenly right after being with him. I'll go numb again with time, but right now, the ache for my best friend is sharp. It's been a rough couple of weeks for me.
I don't mean to be a downer. It just feels good to say this instead of moping in silence.
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im sorry to hear this. i know you prob dont want advice but keep yourself busy as much as possible. family is the best key i have found, even if visiting for a while!!!Your little angel is looking so big, i cant believe she is 4months, any new big events going on with her?
Thanks for sharing Angie. You are fighting the good fight here at home, and I'm sure Todd loves that his woman is hanging tough in his absence.
Parenting with a DAD is awesome isn't it? You guys are going to be such a power team when you're reunited for good just because of this experience.
i'm sorry :( i'm glad you shared this also...you need to get it out. i hope the next 6 months go quickly, and that you enjoy watching hazel grow and she keeps you busy. you are a strong woman. seeing those pictures of you all in italy are bittersweet.
Don't feel bad about sharing that, It's totally normal to miss your husband being gone so long. I can't even imagine, how hard that can be at times. Hang in there, your doing great! I wish you didn't have to go though this, it totally stinks. I admire you strength.
I am sure Todd is feeling the same way...you guys are amazing for doing this. I'm sorry you had to go through the good-byes and the withdraws again, but so glad you got to see Todd.
By the way, it was so good to see you -- hope that you end up in CA again in October!
i'm glad you shared...it keeps things real. i can't even imagine how hard that would be. i was freaking out when kris was gone for only three weeks a while ago! we think of and pray for you guys all the time.
I know a little bit how you feel. In the middle of mine and Dan's engagement I got to go to his basic training graduation and it was soo nice to be near him again and to be making wedding plans together instead of mostly on my own. Then it was just hard going back home and readjusting to being on my own again.
I get that same feeling you express when you first got to see todd in italy everytime Dan comes home from being gone more than 2 days. You just want to sit there and soak him in the first day and then life goes back to normal.
I'm glad you posted this because I think it helps when you are aching afterwards to express it at least and then you can start to move on. Hang in there. I love the posts about Hazel lately. And I love how great you are at being a mom and best friend to her. I'm hoping October comes quickly!
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